I want to take some time here to talk about belief. It is difficult for many survivors and for people who support them or are researching mind control to believe some of the things that come up. It isn't hard to understand why this is the case. To pass the proof test you usually need hard evidence.
Herein lies the problem...many survivors recover memories years after the fact and the information they provide at that point can only be labeled as anecdotal. I can relate to this based on my own memories. I can recall many situations where I would have wanted to contact the police or FBI but didn't and couldn't due to my young age. This means that the perpetrators get away with it and whatever physical evidence might have existed has long since vanished.
Let me give you an example that ties in to the more fantastical things that some survivors say. Often you'll hear a survivor mentioning specific people in government, entertainment, etc. and sometimes reference specific false flag operations we knew about.
The average person would say "I don't believe you met this person. Why would someone of such high status put themselves at risk and, furthermore, what possible connection could they have to your family?"
And I'll be honest, although it stings, I fully support this type of skepticism because it protects non-cult group members from being dragged in. It also challenges someone like me to dig a little deeper and find the connections that will convince the skeptic. In other words, I have tried to be as skeptical as possible about my own memories until I reached the point that I couldn't doubt them and the only thing left for me to do is figure out what was going on and how I could prove this to anyone else.
The conclusion I've come to is that I alone cannot convince anyone of anything. I have many friends who are fellow survivors, we were trafficked together as children, yet they do not remember me. I remember them. It would help me for them to remember but it might not be good for them. I have tried in the past to test my friends' memories to see what they remember. Very few remember things we've been through together, yet they still act out the programming by saying what they told me they were programmed to say if I tried to pull down an amnesia barrier. Some who do remember pieces of events only remember the first few minutes and have created screen memories suggesting that everything ended well.
For me, this is very frustrating and isolating but I tell myself that there is a reason. My friends may not be ready to undergo the type of memory work I'm doing. They might need a different environment, different types of support. So, while it would help to be validated by talking to someone who went through these things with me, I know I can't force the issue for selfish reasons. I'll admit I've come close a few times....to the point where I've laid out every possible trigger, while holding back from telling others what I know about their and my childhoods.
The result is always the same. Either they don't remember at all or they remember a fragment yet believe that we fought off the bad guys and lived happily ever after. Even in the moments we were being assaulted, this was by design. Often, in their alter states, they would say such things as "X years from now when you start remembering this, don't try to talk to me about it. I'm not going to remember it. Even if you bring up the fly on the wall they're going to make me stare at while they assault me."
That's an interesting thing to say, isn't it? It isn't your friend's words, it is that of the handler. It's almost like a dare. Go ahead and bring that up and see if it gets you anywhere. Usually something like that gets you nowhere and the only way to wake anyone up is to approach them like a sibling or other family member. A direct confrontation about the abuse. And this is why it's difficult for survivors to wake each other up. You would have to go to your friend and say "Your father was a pedophile, your mom was on drugs, you were sexually trafficked, and it's still happening."
If they are living a good life it will be difficult for them to want to confront that information. They may never do it. If they have kids, it turns into a generational problem.
I think back to the time I was around 6 or 7 years old. My own mother was trapped by her family history and didn't know how to leave the situation we were all in. I had been filmed for another child porn movie the night before and subsequently had a dream involving a lightning bolt splitting the tree of life. When I woke up from it, I looked out my bedroom window and saw that my mother and brother were outside in the front yard having a heated discussion about something.
Seeking comfort, I got dressed and went outside. By that time, my brother had taken off for work. I told my mom about my dream and she said "None of that stuff is real. It's just what they're doing to control you about...what they're going to do." I asked what that was and what she was so worried about. She said "These people are thinking about taking down some office buildings in New York about 21 years from now. They want to hit them with planes. I don't know if I believe it. I don't really want to believe it."
And there you have it. Anecdotal evidence of the 9/11conspiracy dating as far back as 1980. But only if you believe the stories of survivors who have been cheated of proof. If I were to ask her about it now, she would say she doesn't remember this just as she doesn't remember the 1,000+ times I was trafficked. I would literally have to tear my own mother apart to bring down her walls as a witness. And to satisfy the skeptics, I have to tear my own self apart to dredge up memories of people, places and names that someone could connect through traditional research in a public library. To create more evidence and a whole chorus of people such as myself, I would have to bring emotional chaos into the lives of friends who survived along with me. For this reason, I say that I alone..none of us alone..can ever bring the truth to light. Those who research this subject must double down and put enough threatening (in terms of exposure) information out there that we reach a critical mass that forces our own government to come clean. Until then, enjoy Disneyland.
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