Building on my previous post, I want to go into some of the finer details of the programming...the parts that really do take over a person and create what some call "Marionette Programming".
First, a personal share. I have witnessed myself acting out pre-scripted behaviors and felt astonished at how I performed these acts at precise dates and times. But I would say that my aggravation as a witness also helped me find a way to start breaking free. The more I remember and the faster I remember it, the more I am able to "hear" or remember programming sessions where I was asked to choose between behaviors, as if my choice were symbolic, and regain the ability to make a choice about what I would do.
So, how do the programmers gain control? Typically, it has to be a really bad trauma. The worse the trauma and the younger you are when it happens, the more they can control future behavior. You could think of it almost like a combination of Stockholm Syndrome and really bad parenting. Their messages are being fed to you while you are going through early developmental stages. As a child you don't really have the ability to leave the situation and you end up following orders in order to avoid more abuse.
You can also look at it neurologically in terms of habit formation and avoidance behavior. For example, a programmer might say "I'll always hurt you at 6:00 p.m. but never 11 a.m." If they adhere to this statement, you will naturally develop a fondness for the time of 11 a.m. It becomes a habitual safe zone, so to speak, a time of day when you aren't anxious. But they can still use this against you. They might give you a directive to leave the house "when you're feeling well", and 9 times out of 10 this will be a time that is one of your safe times.
If they have anything planned such as accessing you, gangstalking you, etc, it will usually be something like this that they use to lead you to a place at a specific time. Once you become predictable and a creature of habit, it isn't hard at all for them to know exactly where to find you.
By this same principle, it is also easy for them to plan out your life. If you have developed into a person who is shy or reserved, for instance, it isn't hard to predict that you might have difficulty making friends or finding romantic partners. This opens a window for them to insert other survivors, handlers, etc into your social life.
Shyness or any number of other factors might effect your job prospects and this opens another window for them. They may present job opportunities to you through cult network friends or other means. Usually these jobs, if you get them, will place you in an environment where you are working with other survivors as well as past perpetrators. Your manager, for instance, could be a past perpetrator and you may not know it -- in fact you usually won't know it - until you have done significant memory work. But one thing you will know is that what started out as a good job starts to cause a lot of unexplained anxiety, which usually leads to quitting or getting fired.
My own handler once described the system to me as "An HMO network from hell." This makes sense in that, typically, everyone you know is in the network, and no one who is not in the network is someone you know. Family, friends, doctors, psychologists, teachers...the list goes on...if you are deep in the net of a cult network then almost everyone you interact with will have some association with the group.
And to that end I think it is useful for survivors to look at other people as fellow survivors. They may not share the same experience as you do, but it is likely that they have been through *something*. Keep in mind that it is never just you going through this even when it may feel that way. Survivors are frequently used *against* each other, so, it can be very helpful to make room in your mind and be curious about where others are coming from.
I think I have only scratched the surface here with this post but hope that some part of it was informative. If you have any questions or suggestions on topics for future posts, you can write to me at mkultrafacts@gmail.com
So true...
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