Drugs play a significant role in certain parts of MK Ultra programming. If you are a child it is especially hard to make sense of your experiences when you are on drugs and don't even know it. In my case, I was exposed to a lot of different drugs...Quaaludes like Miltown, opiates, marinol (which is THC in pill form), ssri's and anti psychotics coupled with amphetamines, and LSD.
In fact, one of my first LSD trips as a child happened when I was around 5 or 6. It involved a Leonardo da Vinci painting becoming animated on my closet and turning in to arch angels flying all over my room. A little while after this I was given a near adult dose of LSD and asked to observe my own experience for the ensuing 3 days it would take for the drug to wear off.
I will say this..when you don't know that you are high, anything seems possible. I don't want this to sound like a discouragement to people who truly believe in the paranormal. Your experience may be different than mine. But my experience is that it is very easy to fake real-seeming abduction or ghost like experiences on people who have been dosed with drugs against their will.
At some point you have to ask yourself why someone else wants you to believe such things. Usually it's because, if you are busy chasing rainbows, then you aren't busy chasing down the proof of what's really going on .......trafficking, money laundering, treason, etc.
Wednesday, July 27, 2016
Tuesday, July 26, 2016
MK Ultra:Finer Details
Building on my previous post, I want to go into some of the finer details of the programming...the parts that really do take over a person and create what some call "Marionette Programming".
First, a personal share. I have witnessed myself acting out pre-scripted behaviors and felt astonished at how I performed these acts at precise dates and times. But I would say that my aggravation as a witness also helped me find a way to start breaking free. The more I remember and the faster I remember it, the more I am able to "hear" or remember programming sessions where I was asked to choose between behaviors, as if my choice were symbolic, and regain the ability to make a choice about what I would do.
So, how do the programmers gain control? Typically, it has to be a really bad trauma. The worse the trauma and the younger you are when it happens, the more they can control future behavior. You could think of it almost like a combination of Stockholm Syndrome and really bad parenting. Their messages are being fed to you while you are going through early developmental stages. As a child you don't really have the ability to leave the situation and you end up following orders in order to avoid more abuse.
You can also look at it neurologically in terms of habit formation and avoidance behavior. For example, a programmer might say "I'll always hurt you at 6:00 p.m. but never 11 a.m." If they adhere to this statement, you will naturally develop a fondness for the time of 11 a.m. It becomes a habitual safe zone, so to speak, a time of day when you aren't anxious. But they can still use this against you. They might give you a directive to leave the house "when you're feeling well", and 9 times out of 10 this will be a time that is one of your safe times.
If they have anything planned such as accessing you, gangstalking you, etc, it will usually be something like this that they use to lead you to a place at a specific time. Once you become predictable and a creature of habit, it isn't hard at all for them to know exactly where to find you.
By this same principle, it is also easy for them to plan out your life. If you have developed into a person who is shy or reserved, for instance, it isn't hard to predict that you might have difficulty making friends or finding romantic partners. This opens a window for them to insert other survivors, handlers, etc into your social life.
Shyness or any number of other factors might effect your job prospects and this opens another window for them. They may present job opportunities to you through cult network friends or other means. Usually these jobs, if you get them, will place you in an environment where you are working with other survivors as well as past perpetrators. Your manager, for instance, could be a past perpetrator and you may not know it -- in fact you usually won't know it - until you have done significant memory work. But one thing you will know is that what started out as a good job starts to cause a lot of unexplained anxiety, which usually leads to quitting or getting fired.
My own handler once described the system to me as "An HMO network from hell." This makes sense in that, typically, everyone you know is in the network, and no one who is not in the network is someone you know. Family, friends, doctors, psychologists, teachers...the list goes on...if you are deep in the net of a cult network then almost everyone you interact with will have some association with the group.
And to that end I think it is useful for survivors to look at other people as fellow survivors. They may not share the same experience as you do, but it is likely that they have been through *something*. Keep in mind that it is never just you going through this even when it may feel that way. Survivors are frequently used *against* each other, so, it can be very helpful to make room in your mind and be curious about where others are coming from.
I think I have only scratched the surface here with this post but hope that some part of it was informative. If you have any questions or suggestions on topics for future posts, you can write to me at mkultrafacts@gmail.com
First, a personal share. I have witnessed myself acting out pre-scripted behaviors and felt astonished at how I performed these acts at precise dates and times. But I would say that my aggravation as a witness also helped me find a way to start breaking free. The more I remember and the faster I remember it, the more I am able to "hear" or remember programming sessions where I was asked to choose between behaviors, as if my choice were symbolic, and regain the ability to make a choice about what I would do.
So, how do the programmers gain control? Typically, it has to be a really bad trauma. The worse the trauma and the younger you are when it happens, the more they can control future behavior. You could think of it almost like a combination of Stockholm Syndrome and really bad parenting. Their messages are being fed to you while you are going through early developmental stages. As a child you don't really have the ability to leave the situation and you end up following orders in order to avoid more abuse.
You can also look at it neurologically in terms of habit formation and avoidance behavior. For example, a programmer might say "I'll always hurt you at 6:00 p.m. but never 11 a.m." If they adhere to this statement, you will naturally develop a fondness for the time of 11 a.m. It becomes a habitual safe zone, so to speak, a time of day when you aren't anxious. But they can still use this against you. They might give you a directive to leave the house "when you're feeling well", and 9 times out of 10 this will be a time that is one of your safe times.
If they have anything planned such as accessing you, gangstalking you, etc, it will usually be something like this that they use to lead you to a place at a specific time. Once you become predictable and a creature of habit, it isn't hard at all for them to know exactly where to find you.
By this same principle, it is also easy for them to plan out your life. If you have developed into a person who is shy or reserved, for instance, it isn't hard to predict that you might have difficulty making friends or finding romantic partners. This opens a window for them to insert other survivors, handlers, etc into your social life.
Shyness or any number of other factors might effect your job prospects and this opens another window for them. They may present job opportunities to you through cult network friends or other means. Usually these jobs, if you get them, will place you in an environment where you are working with other survivors as well as past perpetrators. Your manager, for instance, could be a past perpetrator and you may not know it -- in fact you usually won't know it - until you have done significant memory work. But one thing you will know is that what started out as a good job starts to cause a lot of unexplained anxiety, which usually leads to quitting or getting fired.
My own handler once described the system to me as "An HMO network from hell." This makes sense in that, typically, everyone you know is in the network, and no one who is not in the network is someone you know. Family, friends, doctors, psychologists, teachers...the list goes on...if you are deep in the net of a cult network then almost everyone you interact with will have some association with the group.
And to that end I think it is useful for survivors to look at other people as fellow survivors. They may not share the same experience as you do, but it is likely that they have been through *something*. Keep in mind that it is never just you going through this even when it may feel that way. Survivors are frequently used *against* each other, so, it can be very helpful to make room in your mind and be curious about where others are coming from.
I think I have only scratched the surface here with this post but hope that some part of it was informative. If you have any questions or suggestions on topics for future posts, you can write to me at mkultrafacts@gmail.com
Mind Control Fact and Fiction - What This Blog is About
Welcome! This site represents my attempt to collect my thoughts on the experience of going through a government sponsored mind control program. My hope is that I will be able to publish a book on the topic in the near future. That said, let's get into it asap. I know if you are anything like me you want to dispense with the self-aggrandizement and get to the facts...
You have probably visited quite a few websites on this topic and gotten varying impressions on what these programs are about. I feel you. A lot of the information online is only partially accurate. A lot of survivors tell their stories and much of what they say sounds incredible. I would like to state that much of what they say is accurate; but the analysis performed by what I assume are people who did not go through the program is usually not very accurate.
What I mean by that is that non-cult/CIA affiliated researchers seem to rely heavily on the work of people like Fritz Springmeier, who exposed some facets of the program but did not adequately place the control mechanisms into an easy framework of psychological and neurological precepts to which both the average person and the skilled M.D. or Ph.D could relate.
Does the program use words, colors, sounds, symbols and other things as triggers? Yes. Are these things inherently magic in and of themselves? No. To believe otherwise is to buy in to the magic component of programming. Whether you are a survivor or a curious researcher, feel free to love all colors of the spectrum, enjoy your favorite artists and play with the standard deck of cards. You are not going to be driven to madness by symbolism unless you want to be. I know that sounds harsh. I have experienced a lot of moments where the symbolism is all too real and calls up trauma memories...but the programming doesn't rest on the objects or images. It rests in your emotions. When you see the deception, do you want to lash out blindly? Do you want revenge? It's natural to feel anger but only fools rush in to vengeance. You have to take a deep breath and wait and tell yourself that this type of bullying (and it really IS bullying at the highest level) will one day have its come uppance.
Let me give a more personal example...one of my handlers sometimes wore a black robe with red and yellow epaulets meant to mimic the red winged black bird. I can clearly recall feeling terrified of her when she did this. If you pay attention to ptsd triggers, you understand why it might feel strange to sit at a lake full of red winged black birds, although they are separate entities. In theory, I could feel anger and despair at the chain of association she tried to create....I could look at the red winged black bird and tell myself I will never see this bird, I will only be reminded of my handler wearing a robe similar in color to those creatures and the trauma that followed.
But to feel that way is to let them win. If you live in the present then you know that you are experiencing real love, god's love, being mindful of nature. Further, you don't fixate on the trigger..you also hear and see the waves of water from the lake, the cry of other birds, the sun in the sky.
I think this example can be extended to other areas of programming as well. Many people like to fixate on Hollywood and the music industry. It's true that programming goes on there. Many artists and actors are victims of the programming, but that doesn't mean that their original messages are part of some conspiracy....only if the bad guys can get you to interpret them in a negative way. I'm thinking here of Whitney Houston. Whitney Houston went through a deterioration program that ultimately ended in her death. Does that mean you should not love the energy and vibrant spirit she projected in songs such as "I Wanna Dance with Somebody" or "Greatest Love of All" ?
No, those musical achievements represent the spirit of her true self. Only a programmer would look at her videos for those songs and point out more triggers. Normal people and survivors who are choosing to live a normal life will interpret the images as they were intended.....color, light, love, fun.
To be clear, you aren't under their spell until you are looking for their messages. As a survivor I know enough to where I could program you right now. I'd have more control if I knew your whole life story but I could do it just by knowing what marketing demographic you fit in to.
That's the big picture view, but it does get a bit more diabolical. It does get more specific and harder to fight. I'll cover that in the next post.
You have probably visited quite a few websites on this topic and gotten varying impressions on what these programs are about. I feel you. A lot of the information online is only partially accurate. A lot of survivors tell their stories and much of what they say sounds incredible. I would like to state that much of what they say is accurate; but the analysis performed by what I assume are people who did not go through the program is usually not very accurate.
What I mean by that is that non-cult/CIA affiliated researchers seem to rely heavily on the work of people like Fritz Springmeier, who exposed some facets of the program but did not adequately place the control mechanisms into an easy framework of psychological and neurological precepts to which both the average person and the skilled M.D. or Ph.D could relate.
Does the program use words, colors, sounds, symbols and other things as triggers? Yes. Are these things inherently magic in and of themselves? No. To believe otherwise is to buy in to the magic component of programming. Whether you are a survivor or a curious researcher, feel free to love all colors of the spectrum, enjoy your favorite artists and play with the standard deck of cards. You are not going to be driven to madness by symbolism unless you want to be. I know that sounds harsh. I have experienced a lot of moments where the symbolism is all too real and calls up trauma memories...but the programming doesn't rest on the objects or images. It rests in your emotions. When you see the deception, do you want to lash out blindly? Do you want revenge? It's natural to feel anger but only fools rush in to vengeance. You have to take a deep breath and wait and tell yourself that this type of bullying (and it really IS bullying at the highest level) will one day have its come uppance.
Let me give a more personal example...one of my handlers sometimes wore a black robe with red and yellow epaulets meant to mimic the red winged black bird. I can clearly recall feeling terrified of her when she did this. If you pay attention to ptsd triggers, you understand why it might feel strange to sit at a lake full of red winged black birds, although they are separate entities. In theory, I could feel anger and despair at the chain of association she tried to create....I could look at the red winged black bird and tell myself I will never see this bird, I will only be reminded of my handler wearing a robe similar in color to those creatures and the trauma that followed.
But to feel that way is to let them win. If you live in the present then you know that you are experiencing real love, god's love, being mindful of nature. Further, you don't fixate on the trigger..you also hear and see the waves of water from the lake, the cry of other birds, the sun in the sky.
I think this example can be extended to other areas of programming as well. Many people like to fixate on Hollywood and the music industry. It's true that programming goes on there. Many artists and actors are victims of the programming, but that doesn't mean that their original messages are part of some conspiracy....only if the bad guys can get you to interpret them in a negative way. I'm thinking here of Whitney Houston. Whitney Houston went through a deterioration program that ultimately ended in her death. Does that mean you should not love the energy and vibrant spirit she projected in songs such as "I Wanna Dance with Somebody" or "Greatest Love of All" ?
No, those musical achievements represent the spirit of her true self. Only a programmer would look at her videos for those songs and point out more triggers. Normal people and survivors who are choosing to live a normal life will interpret the images as they were intended.....color, light, love, fun.
To be clear, you aren't under their spell until you are looking for their messages. As a survivor I know enough to where I could program you right now. I'd have more control if I knew your whole life story but I could do it just by knowing what marketing demographic you fit in to.
That's the big picture view, but it does get a bit more diabolical. It does get more specific and harder to fight. I'll cover that in the next post.
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